Caitlynn Farrell
Caitlynn Farrell is a sophomore at SJVA. She aspires to be an actress or an innocence attorney. She is best known for her optimistic poetry. She’s also writing and producing her own songs.
Final Hours
You said I was the most beautiful girl
In my final hours
We walked with our hearts with a tip of a blade in our backs
We sang a song we had never heard before
Sometimes I wish
You and me could be
The only things lasting in my final hours
Why do I still feel this way
Even when said goodbye
The world will not be on our sides
The last time we open our eyes
Even when the world ends
You still won't be mine
You could agree with me when I say
Even the smallest child is afraid of death
When his mother tells him goodnight
Sometimes I wish
You and me could be
The only things lasting in my final hours
Why do I still feel this way
Even when we said goodbye
The world will not be on our sides
The last time we open our eyes
We ask for more time
And everything will be alright
But even the oldest person is afraid of life
When she tucks herself into bed
Sometimes I wish
You and me could be
The only things lasting in my final hours
Why do I still feel this way
Even when we said goodbye
The world will not be on our side
The last time we open our eyes
Don’t Let Them In Too Easy
You don’t think about the future
You don’t want control
Being suicidal ain’t so much fun
When others are having a blast
You’re just a depressed man
Painted walls
With scattered scars
Pointing to your open heart
Missed calls and no voicemails
Don’t let them in too easy
Science was your worst class
But you failed all of high school
Mom and dad don’t love you
You’re alone in this situation
You’re just a depressed man
Painted walls
With scattered scars
Pointing to your open heart
Missed calls and no voicemails
Don’t let them in too easy
Your confused
You don’t know what to do
Leave dad to decide
They don’t know
What goes on inside
But I do
You’re just a depressed person
You can’t hide
From me no longer
I’ll take control of you one day
Mom and dad raised a son
But die having a daughter
Your just a depressed woman
Painted walls
With scattered scars
Pointing to your open heart
Missed calls and no voicemails
Don’t let them in too easy
Don’t let them in too easy
We Were All Born To Die
I hear the silent church bells ringing
Could this be the end
I woke up to children screaming
Is this really the end
I wake up the gloomy mornings
Holding my breath
I hear the birds chirping
Could this be my last day
When it all goes wrong
We wake up to sunny skies
No more tomorrow or after-morrow
This is the end
We were all born to die
No way to apologize for the mess I made
I wake up to silent skies and deserted roads
No messes to be cleaned up
When no one around
There’s no one to turn to
When all die
When we see our life flash before our eyes
We cross the path into the eternal light
There is no5m heaven there is no hell
We were all born to die
We were all born to die
All born to die
But All I Saw Was A Façade
Sitting by the window
In an English townhouse watching the cars pass by
I crossed my legs when you sat beside me to play cards
You looked so pretty but I could see those tears in your eyes
Your heart got fast as you talked and laughed
But all I saw was a façade
I turn the television on
Giving a wide grin
You look at me and kicked off your shoes
Your face was so so handsome
Your hands were nice and warm
Your face was of an angel
But all I saw was a façade
Trees turn orange
Seasons pass by
Cold England air touched my skin
Your nose goes red
You sniff and stare
Down at your feet
Turn to me and whisper
“You’re so pretty”
But all I saw was a façade
You cried and cried
I tried to help
I woke from a dream
I tossed and turned
With you beside me
And when I saw your face
A single tear fell from your cheek
As you slept so peacefully
But all I saw was a façade
But all I saw was a façade
Empty Souls Seen
The cloudless blue sky is not as empty as your eyes
You stare into empty souls as they walk by
Spring changes those that have full hearts
Those who don’t want to be stuck in winter
You can spot those who are still in winter with your empty eyes
You see their empty souls walking behind them like a shadow person
That’s what makes you different from the rest
Your soul is full but your eyes are empty
You’re in spring but you see winter
And what about me
There is no me
I’m just your soul
Your eyes tell me what to see
And all I see is sadness
The season of rebirth births people into monsters
And it birthed you into a monster too
Dear Poppy
I’m sorry I didn’t cry for you
Or ask where you went
Or why you were gone
I wasn’t confused I knew what happened but I pushed it away
They always told me you were watching me from Heaven
But what kid would understand that
I mean what what messed up kid would understand death
Would you even be proud of me? I’m the opposite of you
Would you be disappointed that I don’t speak Spanish?
Would you be mad that I don’t believe in God?
I needed you but you were taken away
I would’ve helped you give out to the homeless
And you could teach me guitar
And we could make your chocolate ice cream with peanuts and watch the news
We could go fishing in the gulf
And every Saturday you could make your famous breakfast
I know you still love me and I know that whatever happens you’ll always be watching over me
From,
Your loving granddaughter
Take Me Back to the City on the Coast
My Heart is heavy, but I don't know why
I’m searching for something, a feeling I can’t explain
A memory, a moment, a melody or something to ease the pain
And everytime I close my eyes, I see your sad face
I try to forget you
I know I shouldn’t, but I can’t resist
The memories of our love
Rearranges my thoughts
Making your love feel like a drug
Take me back to the city on the coast
Where our love was so young and alive
We were wild and free, nothing could bring us down
Take me back to the city on the coast.
Walking down the boulevard
Aphrodite takes my place
It seems as if somethings missing
It’s your hand in mine
And every time I close my eyes, I see your sad face
I try to forget you
I know I shouldn’t, but I can’t resist
The memories of our love
Rearranges my thoughts
Making your love feel like a drug
Take me back to the city on the coast
Where our love was so young and alive
We were wild and free, nothing could bring us down
Take me back to the city on the coast
Take me back to the city on the coast
I’ll be waiting here for you
In the city on the coast
We Live In America
We live in America the land of the free
But where is the freedom?
Where the poor get poorer and the rich get richer
Where white men rule the country and make the rules
We live in America the land that was made to escape religion
But we are told to believe in God
We are forced to swear under God
We are told to only be Christians or get out of here
We live in America were this country thrives off of emigrants
But we hate emigrants and tell them to go back to their country
Where laws are passed to legally shoot those coming from Mexico
We live in America the country which we stole from the Native Americans
But we are taking away their homes their land
We took their culture away
We forced their children to go to abusive schools
We live in America where we can be who we want to be
But the government is taking LGBTQIA+ rights away
Where we are scared to show our true selves because we don’t want to be killed
Where LGBTQIA+ kids are being bullied to death
We live in America where we feel protected
But its 2023 and there has already been 130 mass shootings
Killing children is not as important as the right to bear arms
Where these poor babies are dying because of gun violence
We live in America which is one of the most Ethnically diverse countries
But Black men, women, and children are being killed and no one cares
Asian men, women, and children are being beaten up and no one cares
Hispanic men, women, and children are being denied citizenship and no one cares
We live in America the country that needs women to survive
But they can be raped and killed by men and the women are still blamed
Where a woman can’t terminate a pregnancy because a person without a uterus says so
Where we are denied health care and basic human rights just because we are female
We live in America where we are supposed to protect people
But everyone is dying and being tortured but no ones cares
Where women will face time for aborting a baby but the rapist will be free
Where POC are blamed for a white mans doing or wrongly accused of crime
We live in America the land of the free
But are we really free if we aren't white, straight, cis, and male?
Trapped
I feel like I’m trapped under ice
Stuck in deep, dark, and cold water
Whenever I try to break free my knuckles just bleed
Should I just drown or should I keep trying
I always think there's something swimming behind me
Nothings there
I get so scared when I can’t see the ground I’m standing on
But I’m not standing I’m swimming
Trying to stay alive
I’ve purposely tried to drown
But do I really want to die
The darkness surrounds me and brings me in
I feel comforted
But this is all that I’m used too
I see the things I love on the other side of the ice
But I can’t break free
I’m trying to leave the only life I have
But the darkness pulls me back
I’m trapped
I’m hurt
I’m scared
Because in the end, I don’t want to die
I just want to be loved
The Weeping Woman
They called her the weeping woman
Crying for her sons
But living for her daughters
If she had lived in another country
She’d be living for her children
Maybe her sons would’ve gone to college
And her daughters would marry rich men
But losing a husband couldn’t get her anywhere
Maybe if there hadn’t been a war
She wouldn’t be crying
Maybe if there wasn’t any hatred
She wouldn’t have took her own life