Miranda Sainz
Goodbye
Never would I have imagined
That my happiness would depend on you
I realized that when I no longer had you
From spending time with you
To not hearing from you
I realize how lost I am without your presence
From our first words
To our last goodbye
It feel as though those were just words for you
As though for or me they came from the depths of me
You lit a spark that I never knew was there
And now that you're gone
Nothing can trigger it any longer
Now I have to go on without you
Knowing that you're out there
As I drown in the mess you've caused me
While you swim in the lies you solely live off
Despite this, my heart has no room for hatred towards you
Meanwhile yours has no room for me in it at all
Without You
As I sit and wander where I went wrong
You walk around with pride knowing that it was all you
Since you left me with no closure
I try and put the pieces together
When all along, what we had was broken
I wish I could have my old self back
But you took that from me
Now the only pieces I have left
Are the ones that you left me in
Shambles that I don’t know how to repair
Are the ones that need you, knowing you left
My mind knows I shouldn’t crave you as much as I still do
But my heart knows I can’t handle it
I still have the slightest hope that this can be something better and new
But seeing me now, I don’t want to relive any of it
I want to move on from you
And learn to live without your words
Without your presence
Without your comfort
Without you
After You
This is to your future self
To the person you want to be, who you will be
What’s it like to live with serenity and peace
Was it hard?
How long did it take because I can’t seem to get out of this hole
It brings me comfort that you’ve healed all the wounds you've been caused
I thought that those pieces would never find their way back to each other
But time was good to you and proved me wrong
As I open my eyes
I wake up to this misery
And realize that I was still in this hole
There was no serenity or peace
There was no healed wounds
Only a pit of sorrows that I can’t escape from
Peace
Despite all the pain and hurt
Life reminds me that it’s never time well worth spent to dwell on it
To rejoice in the numerous opportunities
And numerous people that life will present me with
There will be struggles
There will be people who seem to want nothing but mean harm to you
And that someone was you
But I will go on with calmness in my heart knowing that im so much more
So much more than who I was was with you
Because I was blind to my worth
I now go on without you, recognizing my importance
I thank you for the hurt because without it I wouldn’t be here now
Learning to love me
Knowing you never did
I know now that the one thing your absence left me with
Is peace
Stranger
In a desk she sits
A stranger in front of her
No words are spoken
Two Souls
From a glare
There was a hello
You gave her a handshake
Then an invitation
Time took its place
And united two perfect souls
Realization
As my eyes wander upon my peers
I realize that these years aren’t forever
The day is coming when I will no longer see these faces
And I’ll start to miss them in my post high school life
I may not see it now, but these are the years I’ll long for in the future
How
How could I have fallen for you so deeply
When all along you were just like the rest
Rain
The rain fall from the sky
Were like the tears running down her face
Not knowing why she would cry
She thought back with her mind trying to trace
The salty tears in her mouth
Reminded her that she can now feel
What she couldn’t feel when things were south
Then in awe she fell to kneel
Since the numbness had faded
She could now heal and release all blame
That feeling was no longer the feeling of being degraded
For she no longer wanted to feel the shame
Liar
I believed you
Every word that came out of your mouth
You weren’t special
Everything you said was normal
My mind held you in such a high place
That I couldn’t realize that they were just words, without meaning
Now that you’re not here
I see how much of my time was wasted
Thinking about you endlessly
Now dwelling on it all
I’m glad I’ve escaped that cycle of patterns
In which I once fell for
Future
Her mom sees a bright future for her daughter
But she can't see what it is
The future to her looks like a big blur
As if she has nothing ahead for her
Cat
The softness of the fur
And the pokes of whiskers
Along with the vibrations of purrs
Is where she finds her comfort
In her tiny favorite being
Moving ahead
As we prepare to begin the next chapters of our lives
In the midst of us are people who have big plans
Others not so much
We’ll all go our separate ways
Because of that, we won’t see each other create our future
Or where we end up